ATROCITY EXHIBITION ;; It's not so much a living hell, it's just a dying fiction.
"I have felt a presence that disturbs me with the joy of elevated thoughts; a sense of sublime of something far more deeply interfused, whose dwelling is the light of setting suns, and the round ocean and living air and the blue sky, and in the mind of man; a notion and a spirit, that impels all thinking things, all objects of all thought, and rolls through all things."

HELLO, I LOVE YOU;
I am currently about to attend my second year of college. I am not sure what I want to do with my life yet, but I do know that all I want is to be happy with what I am doing. Wanderlust would be the word that describes me most. I am a natural born wanderer. I want nothing more than to drift from place to place someday with nothing but the clothes on my back, a canvas, and a guitar. I think that would be the most interesting thing--to have no idea what will happen next, and to meet so many interesting people along the way. Just... living life. I guess that's why I always found pirates exciting. I would live at sea if I could.

I love people. I love learning about them and talking to them. I am always willing to buy anyone a cup of coffee to just sit down and hear a life story or some insight. $2.50 for a little extra wisdom is definitely a fair price.

THE ENNEAGRAM: SEVEN;
I never used to believe in any of that personality test junk. I always found it ludacris to actually think that a number could describe who I am, but then I took the Enneagram test with a friend of a friend. It was shocking how dead on everything was. So here's a little more about my personality...

Basic Facts: Seven's are given the title of "The Enthusiast" or "The Adventurer." Seven's are adventurous and busy with many activities with all the energy and enthusiasm of the Puer Aeternus, or 'The Eternal Boy' (ex: Peter Pan). [Side note: The funny thing about this is that ever since I was a child, Peter Pan has been my favorite story. I would dream about him coming to my window and bringing me away with him to Neverland.] At their best they embrace life for its varied joys and wonders and truly live in the moment. Sevens generally have problems with anxiety and insecurity, particularly concerning inner conflicts (which explains the need to resort to the external environment for happiness and satisfaction.)

The sin of the Seven is gluttony, the virtue being sobriety. The basic fear of a seven is to be bored, unsatisfied, or disappointed.

Childhood: Sevens generally were unable to depend on a nurturing figure in their childhood to provide happiness and secruity. Thus they feel that they must compensate for the ineffectiveness of the nurturing figure by satisfying themselves.

Addictions: The seven is the type most prone to addictions: stimulants (caffiene, cocaine, and amphetamines), Ecstasy, psychotropics, narcotics, pain killers, and alcohol, but tend to avoid other depressants.

Examples of Sevens: John F. Kennedy, Benjamin Franklin, Mick Jagger, John Belushi, Leonardo DiCaprio, Elizabeth Taylor, Mozart, Robin Williams, Jim Carrey, etc.

LIKES;
Discussing the secrets of the universe. Embarking upon adventures wherever they may occur. Making music. Conspiracy Theories. Coffee. Dancing. The sky. Incense. Wonder color fingerpaints. Polaroids. The Ocean. Snow/Skate/Surf. Writing. Fire. Summer. Seagull catching. Rain. Road trips. Lazer shows. People watching. Parking garages. Typewriters. Parks. Willow branch fights. Being outside. Being in cars. Soft green grass. Breaking news. Adjectives. Giraffes. Macaroni art. Cat's cradle. Trains. Pirates. Watching bad zombie movies. Cartoons. Johnny Depp. Final Fantasy (Especially VII). Reading. Cowboy Bebop. Organized crime. Vanilla Coke. Food. Psychology. Dragonflys. Hookah. Optimism.

DISLIKES;
Emo. When normally foreign movies are dubbed over with strange local voices that make you want to saw your ears off. The smell in hospitals (and hospitals in general). People who are too serious about sports. Scissors that don't cut properly. Shallow people. Egotistical people. Chain letters. Jennifer Lopez. Fake people. Not having batteries when I need them. People who scratch my cds. Closed-minded people. 50 Cent and his lisp. George W. Bush. The paperclip in microsoft word. Words like "hollah" and "represent" -- shut the fuck up! Rap videos. When you are trying to spread butter on toast, but the butter is too cold and just sticks to the knife. Racists. Overly masculine guys. People who don't like cartoons. Pencils that keep breaking. Ignorance. People who own 50 Cent's cds and aren't ashamed of it. People reading over your shoulder. Paris Hilton. People who don't work for what they have. BEING RUSHED. Wearing shoes. Being let down.

MISC. FACTS;
001; I play 3 instruments: the guitar, harmonica, and panpipes.
002; I can usually be found in a coffee shop, wandering around town, atop a parking garage, or in "the basement."
003; Music and art are the most important things in my life. If I don't have music, I get cranky.
004; I am Italian, Irish, and Bohemian. I am damn proud of it all, too.
005; I'd walk around barefoot everywhere if I could.
006; I love with every fiber of my being.
007; I am quite positive I was born in the wrong decade.
008; I'm a hippie-child.
009; I used to dance for an actual dance company, though I was forced to stop due to money and an ankle injury.
010; I am one of those in the world unlucky enough to end up with an abusive alcoholic of a father, but I wouldn't go back and change it if I could, for it made me who I am today... and I would like to think I'm a pretty decent human being.
011; I seek knowledge at every turn.
012; I seek understanding of the mind and how it works.
013; I do not seek perfection, for perfection is a flaw in itself.

ENTERTAINMENT;
MUSIC: Click.

MOVIES: Peter Pan, Almost Famous, Little Miss Sunshine, Kiss Kiss Bang Bang, Army of Darkness, Young Frankenstein, Dazed and Confused, American Beauty, Requiem for a Dream, Donnie Darko, Good Will Hunting, Felix the Cat, Pink Floyd: The Wall, The Breakfast Club, Moulin Rouge, Pi, Waking Life, The Basketball Diaries, Pirates of the Caribbean, Clerks, The Graduate, Fight Club, The Virgin Suicides, Se7en, Chocolat, The Big Lebowski, Momento, Harold & Maude, A Clockwork Orange, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, The Warriors, Scarface, The Godfather, Forrest Gump, Some Like it Hot, I Heart Huckabees, The Sandlot, The Boondock Saints, American History X, The Crow, Lord of the Rings, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Brick, American Psycho, Road to Perdition, Love Actually, Stay, Pulp Fiction, Reservoir Dogs, Garden State, SLC Punk!, Rebel Without a Cause, The Green Mile, Tim Burton movies, Alice in Wonderland, Pan's Labyrinth.

ART: Ralph Steadman, MC Escher, Salvador Dali, Michael Parkes, Jamie Hewlett, Roy Lichtenstein, Van Gogh, Degas, Peter Max, John Singer Seargent, Banksy.

BOOKS: This list could go on forever, so I will only name a few: Catcher in the Rye, HOUSE OF LEAVES, Choke, Fight Club, Dharma Punx, The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test, The Five People You Meet in Heaven, Anything by Stephen King, Anything by Kurt Vonnegut, Harry Potter, Anything by Bret Easton Ellis, The Outsiders, Scar Tissue, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, A Clockwork Orange, Alice in Wonderland, Lolita, The Unbearable Lightness of Being, etc

TV: I'll be honest, I rarely turn on the television. But occasionally when I am unable to sleep or the like, these are some shows I enjoy: Six Feet Under, Cowboy Bebop, Three's Company, All those rediculous cartoons out their (South Park, Family Guy, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, etc), Heroes, Late Night with Conan O'Brien

DEEPEST FEARS;
Clowns: My biggest fear of all. The make-up gives them distorted and terrifying faces. I hate the creepy way they laugh.
Growing Old: I am in no way afraid of death, but I am absolutely horrified that someday I'll be old. I am afraid of not being able to do things because of my age, and I'm terrifed I will forget everything--that I'll forget all the amazing times I've had throughout my life. If I could stay young forever, I would.
Needles: They're tiny, they're sharp, they're used for injecting shit into your veins, and I hate the way it feels when they sink into your arm.
Spiders and Leeches: I don't think I need to explain this one.
Airplanes: I love traveling, but I am claustrophobic and I just can't seem to trust a giant (flying) metal object with my life.
Small, Enclosed Spaces: Especially elevators. Again, claustrophobic.
Achilles Tendons: A disgustingly irrational fear, but they creep me the fuck out.

TAURUS;
Patient, reliable, warmhearted, loving, persistant, determined, placid, security loving, jelous, possessive, resentful, inflexible, self-indulgent, greedy.
LIKES: Stability, being attracted, things natural, time to ponder, comfort, pleasure.
DISLIKES: Disruption, being pushed too hard, synthetic or "man made" things, being rushed, being indoors.

The Taurean's characteristics are solidity, practicality, extreme determination and strength of will - no one will ever drive them, but they will willingly and loyally follow a leader they trust. They are stable, balanced, conservative good, law-abiding citizens and lovers of peace, possessing all the best qualities of the bourgeoisie. As they have a sense of material values and physical possessions, respect for property and a horror of falling into debt, they will do everything in their power to maintain the security of the status quo and be somewhat hostile to change.

Mentally, they are keen-witted and practical more often than intellectual, but apt to become fixed in their opinions through their preference for following accepted and reliable patterns of experience. Their character is generally dependable, steadfast, prudent, just, firm and unshaken in the face of difficulties. Their vices arise from their virtues, going to extremes on occasion,such as sometimes being too slavish to the conventions they admire.

On rare occasions a Taurean may be obstinately and exasperatingly self-righteous, unoriginal, rigid, ultraconservative, argumentative, querulous bores, stuck in a self-centered rut. They may develop a brooding resentment through nursing a series of injuries received and, whether their characters are positive or negative, they need someone to stroke their egos with a frequent, "Well Done!" Most Taureans are not this extreme though.

They are faithful and generous friends with a great capacity for affection, but rarely make friends with anyone outside their social rank, to which they are ordinarily excessively faithful. In the main, they are gentle, even tempered, good natured, modest and slow to anger, disliking quarreling and avoiding ill-feeling. If they are provoked, however, they can explode into violent outbursts of ferocious anger in which they seem to lose all self-control. Equally unexpected are their occasional sallies into humor and exhibitions of fun.

Although their physical appearance may belie it, they have a strong aesthetic taste, enjoying art, for which they may have a talent, beauty (recoiling from anything sordid or ugly) and music. They may have a strong, sometimes unconventional, religious faith. Allied to their taste for all things beautiful is a love for the good things of life pleasure, comfort, luxury and good food and wine and they may have to resist the temptation to over indulgence, leading to drunkenness, gross sensuality, and covetousness.

In their work, Taureans are industrious and good craftspeople, and are not afraid of getting their hands dirty. They are reliable, practical, methodical and ambitious, within a framework of obedience to superiors. They are at their best in routine positions of trust and responsibility, where there is little need of urgency and even less risk of change, and a pension at the end. Yet they are creative and good founders of enterprises where the rewards of their productiveness come from their own work and not that of others. They can flourish in many different trades and professions: banking, architecture, building, almost any form of bureaucracy, auctioneering, farming, medicine, chemistry, industry Taureans make good managers and foremen surveying, insurance, education and, perhaps surprisingly, music and sculpture. They make an ideal trustee or guardian, and can attain eminence as a chef. Some Taureans are gifted enough in singing to become opera stars or to excel in more popular types of music.

They are more than averagely amorous and sensually self-conscious, but sexually straightforward and not given to experiment. They make constant, faithful, home loving spouses and thoughtful, kindly parents, demanding too much of neither their spouses nor children. They can be over possessive and may sometimes play the game of engineering family roles for the pleasure of making up the quarrel. If anyone offends their amour proper they can be a determined enemy, though magnanimous in forgiveness if their opponent makes an effort to meet them halfway.

No other sign in the zodiac is closer to earth then Taurus. The main objective in leading a Taurean life is primarily (though not entirely) to maintain stability and physical concerns. Your inner spiritual sense longs for earthly harmony and wholesomeness. When you fully understand this, and work toward this end, you will no longer need to blindly reassure yourself with external possessions and comforts. A realization that finding this inner peace will cause all of the above mentioned positive things will overtake you and your life will be very full.

Ultimately the Taurean needs to discover their truest, deepest and highest values. When they know what is truly valuable, they are no longer chained to people and to things that have to do with lesser values. The greatest indication of value to a Taurean is beauty, which cannot be owned, only appreciated.